Florida 2012

At the shades of green in Lake Buena Vista, FL! June 29, 2012-July , 2012.

Update? I think so.

Hello, blogger. Been months since I last updated.. Well, deploying next week. I know, crazy huh? And I guess tonight is one of those nights where I can't sleep.. because my mind is racing while my body is so exhausted. I know I should sleep after such a long day.. but it's eating away my conscience. The fact that I'm leaving. For a whole year. To a whole different continent. Country. Place. In a hostile environment. Well, yeah.. I'm afraid.

Idk if its the danger, or the idea and fact that I won't get to see my loved ones anymore. It hurts, ya know? Words cannot express my mood. Confused. Scared. Anxious. Upset?..

This past two months have flown by SO QUICK. Went on adventures. Lost myself quite a bit. YOLOed. Vacationed. Loved. Lost. What ever it may be..

I hope that whoever reads this..

Learns of my tiny little life on earth. And learns to appreciate life for what it is. Every waking moment is a blessing and I hope you never forget that.

Love,
Han

Stressed Out

Started the spring semester this week, my first ever semester in college and already I'm feelin' it. It's not the classes, JUST YET, but the whole processing with my tuition, GI BILL, transcripts... I just wanna call it quits already. I know it's not in my nature to give up, but I feel overwhelmed. I feel like the world doesn't want me to go to college. I just found out that CollegeFirst isn't in my contract, so that DOES mean I have a possibility of deploying because I signed my life away. If I go, that risks everything.. Not only my life, but my education because how is it possible to retain all the knowledge I will learn this semester while you're trying to survive and stay squared away overseas? I'm still young. My life barely just started and I feel like my plate is already full of responsibilities. I just wish someone would let me breathe. And say it's fine.. Trying to balance life out with work, school, fam, friends, bf, and the army. I know my problems are probably smaller than most, but this is what it is. I hope everything I do now pays off later because I'm not going through all this for nothing. -Han

New Years 2012

Happy new year! :D Love, Han